A man like that, born to rule, I am well aware. But what else was I supposed to do? Listen to someone that tells me I’ve got it all wrong? I go with my instincts don’t I. You lot think too much, while I’m here working. I’m in the real world. You wouldn’t last long here. It’s not easy, you’ve got to work hard, you’ll have a shock, theres not much air, thats the claustrophobia. Theres a few things you can do to ease it and they work for a while, at least. Let me know. I know someone. Anyway, listen, I want out though, I just want to leave. We just want out, we just want out, we just want out, we just want out, we just want out. We just want to leave. I can only deal with what’s in front of me you see, it’s a daily struggle to keep in control, no time for anything else. We are on a knifes edge. So the people that keep us don’t care much about what we do to each other in here, we have a bit of fun though at least. They leave us alone as long as we maintain things, just enough, because we’re useful, well as long as we keep our mouths shut anyway. When I open it, they don’t like what comes out. You’ll see the eyes start rolling. But they don’t no anything about life in here, thats what makes me laugh. Some of them pretend they want to help out, that they understand, they say they don’t think I should be in here, but when they are faced with whats real they run off. It’s because I’m different to them, but its funny how they turn on me when I say I don’t like people different to me! The more honest ones, they say I’m in the right place, someones got to be the bottom, for someone to be the top. So I focus on building a box within my box, it’s got cctv, bars, everything, lovely. I can even check on it on my iPhone when I’m away. If you were me you’d have it all too because in here, and let me tell you in life, you have to look after yourself, because if you don’t know one else will. You have to look after yourself, and thats how you get things done. Thats what I can control. So thats what I care about, wouldn’t you? Thats how I improved my life, and trust me it needed improving, no one else did it for me, I did it for me, thats reality and thats what we do in here, and if you don’t thats your problem. I’m not truly sure where I am though, if I’m honest, its because I can’t see the edges. I can’t even see the sides. There are blocks that I don’t even want to think about, thats why I don’t think. Its a wall that I’ve never had contact with, I don’t know what it is made from, I don’t know the people that built it so how would I know what I’m trapped by? I can tell you that I feel claustrophobic though and it makes me feel angry. But in any case, I’ve got things to get on with, things to buy, holidays to book, I was thinking of redecorating too, rip this old stuff out, look I’m sparkling clean.

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